I’m having one of those days

whereby my mind is rambling,

connecting unconnected synapses in my mind.

And the one thought that keeps coming to the fore is

WHAT WOULD I DO IF I HAD THE CHANCE

TO GO BACK IN MY LIFE

AND CHANGE ONE THING.

JUST ONE THING.

WHAT WOULD IT BE?

There are a lot of things I would want to change

but if I could change only ONE thing

what would I choose?

That’s such a tough question.

A lot of things immediately flash through my mind—

the mistakes, the blunders, the bad decisions.

And though it would be good to change those things,

I feel like I would want to do something that had more of an impact.

BUT WHAT COULD THAT ONE THING BE?

Just ONE thing that would make a difference.

I waited a while for the synapses to connect.

I thought my mind might focus on such things as

CAREER CHOICES, LOCATIONS WHERE WE LIVED, or LIFESTYLE.

But what did finally come to mind was this—

IF I COULD GO BACK AND CHANGE ONE THING

I WOULD SPEND MORE TIME LOVING

THE SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE.

Let me say that again.

I WOULD SPEND MORE TIME LOVING

THE SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE.

It’s not that I didn’t love them the first time around

because I did.

I would just love them MORE

and I would do it all in the little ways that said

”I LOVE YOU.”

I would take the time to sit with them more.

But I wouldn’t just sit and be in their presence,

I would actively be IN THEIR LIVES.

I would tell them all the little things that I liked about them,

every little thing I could think of

and say it often.

I would tell them how much they mean to me,

how important they are in my life.

I would share with them how I like the little things they do

or have done, the things that make them

so special in my eyes

and sometimes make me cry with love.

I would ask them questions about their interests,

their talents, their hopes, their dreams.

And then when they talked I would listen…..really listen.

I would hug them more, touch more, express my feelings more

Do silly things with them,

sit together and eat popcorn and laugh

and watch movies and sunsets

and go on walks together and reminisce.

I would treasure each moment

and reassure them that I’ve always loved them

but this is a chance to love them even more

and I don’t want to miss it.

And then a few more synapses connected in my mind

and I thought…..now wait a minute.

I’m NOT DEAD.

These are things I CAN do NOW.

Not with those who have passed on

but with all those who are living.

I REJOICED at the thought.

I REOICED at the opportunity.

There’s TIME while there’s LIFE

to make the change.

I can start living my life over…..NOW.

And start LOVING MORE….NOW.

I REJOICED AGAIN!

NOW TO MAKE IT HAPPEN.

So, what ONE thing would YOU change if YOUR life

if you could live your life over

and maybe even do it now?