IF I COULD LIVE MY LIFE OVER

I’m having one of those days

whereby my mind is rambling,

connecting unconnected synapses in my mind.

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And the one thought that keeps coming to the fore is

WHAT WOULD I DO IF I HAD THE CHANCE

TO GO BACK IN MY LIFE

AND CHANGE ONE THING.

JUST ONE THING.

WHAT WOULD IT BE?

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There are a lot of things I would want to change

but if I could change only ONE thing

what would I choose?

That’s such a tough question.

A lot of things immediately flash through my mind—

the mistakes, the blunders, the bad decisions.

And though it would be good to change those things,

I feel like I would want to do something that had more of an impact.

BUT WHAT COULD THAT ONE THING BE?

Just ONE thing that would make a difference.

I waited a while for the synapses to connect.

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I thought my mind might focus on such things as

CAREER CHOICES, LOCATIONS WHERE WE LIVED, or LIFESTYLE.

But what did finally come to mind was this—

IF I COULD GO BACK AND CHANGE ONE THING

I WOULD SPEND MORE TIME LOVING

THE SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE.

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Let me say that again.

I WOULD SPEND MORE TIME LOVING

THE SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE.

It’s not that I didn’t love them the first time around

because I did.

I would just love them MORE

and I would do it all in the little ways that said

”I LOVE YOU.”

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I would take the time to sit with them more.

But I wouldn’t just sit and be in their presence,

I would actively be IN THEIR LIVES.

I would tell them all the little things that I liked about them,

every little thing I could think of

and say it often.

I would tell them how much they mean to me,

how important they are in my life.

I would share with them how I like the little things they do

or have done, the things that make them

so special in my eyes

and sometimes make me cry with love.

I would ask them questions about their interests,

their talents, their hopes, their dreams.

And then when they talked I would listen…..really listen.

I would hug them more, touch more, express my feelings more

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Do silly things with them,

sit together and eat popcorn and laugh

and watch movies and sunsets

and go on walks together and reminisce.

I would treasure each moment

and reassure them that I’ve always loved them

but this is a chance to love them even more

and I don’t want to miss it.

And then a few more synapses connected in my mind

and I thought…..now wait a minute.

I’m NOT DEAD.

These are things I CAN do NOW.

Not with those who have passed on

but with all those who are living.

I REJOICED at the thought.

I REOICED at the opportunity.

There’s TIME while there’s LIFE

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to make the change.

I can start living my life over…..NOW.

And start LOVING MORE….NOW.

I REJOICED AGAIN!

NOW TO MAKE IT HAPPEN.

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So, what ONE thing would YOU change if YOUR life

if you could live your life over

and maybe even do it now?

 

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